In my dream I am with a group of women and children all familiar to me, my sisters, my daughters, my friends, and we are on a journey. I take the wheel of the car and drive through foreign streets into a wide well lit tunnel. It is as if I am driving in reverse as I need to get my head around these unfamiliar surroundings and it takes me some time to orient myself. The whole time I imagine we will crash, but as often happens in my dreams the car steers its own steady course safely through the tunnel and I manage to right the wheel in the nick of time.
Later I spend some time with my older brother.
‘I’m thinking of visiting Dad’s graveside,’ my brother says. ‘Do any of you others want to come’.
I have been trying to tidy my house while my brother makes plans. Children’s toys pulled out of order, doll’s clothes spread across the floor and bits and pieces of games and toy sets, some broken and in pieces spread around me.
I am desperate to get the place in order even as I think I would like to join my brother. What chance is there I wonder that any of the others will want to come?
In my dream my father is buried at Hall’s Gap. It is a long drive and I pitch myself forward in my imagination to his graveside when I wake up.