I
dreamt that a British couple was
walking through the newsroom. They were
looking at our nameplates. “Who are
these people?” one of them said, as if we weren’t there. I had a
feeling the woman wanted one of our
jobs. I started talking to the woman,
who also turned out to be a poet. I
sensed that I seemed shameless to my fellow workers. The woman and I
went for a walk outside. I asked her about her poetry. While I
couldn’t understand her accent
perfectly, I gathered that her tastes were Victorian. I said we seemed
to be on the opposite ends
of poetry. During the walk, the woman became
worried she would miss her subway, a G train, which ran above ground
like a
suburban train line. I said we would be
able to see it coming over the landscape.
We avoided a wet area, then bent low to walk underneath a weeping
willow. I asked if she knew my old
friend Roland Vernon, a British novelist.
She didn’t. At a house we entered,
the phone was ringing and water was boiling on the stove, but no one was
home,
which was very disturbing.
*
I dreamt that the poet Peter Gizzi came
to see me at my childhood home in South Orange, N.J. I pulled up some chairs near where the outdoor
playhouse used to be. I had a messy bag
of rolling tobacco, from which we harvested cigarettes. He asked me if switching from working
part-time to full-time had made me more bourgeois. I said I didn’t think so, but that something
else had. I told him that when I was
working part-time in South Brunswick, N.J., I sat next to a guy named Bob
Cwiklik. My mentioning Bob conjured him
up, and he joined us on the chairs under the giant white pine. One day, I said, Bob and I were walking to
get coffee, and he said to me, “I don’t know if you realize this, but your
assets are losing value every day. Have
you been to Europe lately? The dollar doesn’t buy anything.” The implication was that the eroding value of
my assets—and the need to do something about it—was what had made me bourgeois,
which was totally untrue. At that point,
we went into the house, which was different from our Montrose Ave. house, more
a warren of rooms. I lost track of
Peter, then I gathered that he had encountered my wife, Louisa, and she didn’t
recognize him, which upset me. I shot
into the dining room to prevent another faux pas. Soon, Peter had to leave. He was going to walk back to the train
station in South Orange Village. It
wasn’t the same walk that it used to be, but flatter and shadier. As we stood near my back door, it started to
drizzle. It looked like it was going to
rain hard. I offered Peter an umbrella, insisted
that he take it, but he was sure that he didn’t need one.
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